Is it just me, or Can You See the Hand of God

This may be a wordy blog but I'm going to try my best to keep it short. I just don't want you to miss out on what I have experienced in the past 1 1/2 weeks. And some day, I'm hoping I will be looking back on this blog holding a beautiful soft baby in my arms.

Let me set the stage......When I had my ectopic pregnancy & was in the ER 2/25 and into the early morning of 2/26, the Dr who was on call for my Dr was Dr. Ollar. I heard marvelous things about her and she is in the office with my Dr. Anderson. I had heard from several women she was a Christian. When Dr. Ollar came in at 3:30 a.m. Tuesday, she treated Bryan and I with great compassion and talked to us as if we knew her for years. I really liked her. She was very informative and just had a very sweet spirit about her. After the surgery Bryan even asked if she was taking new patients. We laugh at that because I thought it strange my husband was trying to set me up with a new OB/GYN while I was knocked out! hee hee!!

Later in the week, after I came home, my Sunday School teacher's wife (her name is Toni) and I spoke over the phone. She was telling me her and her GYN had discussed adoptions previously. Her dr had told her it was frustrating at the costs of adoption when she knew adoptions her office did were a lot less than some others she had heard of. During this conversation Toni did not mention her Dr. name so I asked thinking this could be an avenue Bryan and I could pursue. Do you know Toni's doctors name.........DR. OLLAR!!! I squealed over the phone. Toni had no idea that was who I had seen! Is that not remarkable??!! My follow up with Dr. Ollar was this past Monday 3/3 and Bryan and I discussed adoptions with her. She said her office had 4 just in November & December 2006 alone but none in 2007 and at the current time she did not have a birth mother wanting to do an adoption. She said there was no problem putting us on the list for possible parents because there was just one other couple on the list. She advised us to get established with a lawyer. We left the office excited yet cautiously optimistic. The odds don't appear quite in our favor but I just think it would be just like God to beat the odds and send us a baby through this route. I'm careful not to say we are testing God, but Bryan and I do want to sit back and watch what God does. When I think of getting a baby through this avenue and these interlocking events, I just want to shout with joy. Wait....it gets better.....

This Wednesday night I was giving Toni, Amy (her and her husband lead our Sunday School Class with Todd & Toni), and Tara (attends the church we do and is around my age. She and I work in ladies ministry together) an update on my appointment and adoption discussions with Dr. Ollar. When I said there is only one other couple on the list, Tara spoke up and said I know who that other couple is......It is Steve and I!!!!!!!!!!! She saw Dr. Ollar in February and had her put them on the list. AMAZING!!!

At this point, we feel led to stay on Dr. Ollar's list and over the next month or so research and attend a workshop through Deaconess Hospital. Bryan said we should wait and save more for the next 9 months since it would have taken 9 months for our baby to get here had I carried to term. But throughout this time we are actively on Dr. Ollar's list and hope to contact our lawyer within the next week or so. After the first of the year, we think we will be more aggressive through other routes other than Dr. Ollar. Deaconess has an outstanding adoption program and I've known individuals who received their child through their program. The range of adoptions through this route is $15,000 - $32,000. We've got to save a lot more money and Bryan is not going to get a new truck this year!!!!! Pray his truck will last for many more years to come! Seriously.

Just look at how all of this is interlocked together. I almost want to say coincidence but there is no coincidences with God.
1. Dr. Ollar isn't my regular doctor yet I saw her in the ER
2. Dr. Ollar is Toni's Dr which I did not know prior to 3/1 and which Toni did not know either.
3. Dr. Ollar facilitates adoptions through her office which I did not know prior to 3/1.
4. Toni had previously spoken to Dr. Ollar prior to my ectopic pregnancy.
5. There is one other couple on Dr. Ollar's list.
6. That other couple is a couple that attends church where we do and we work in Ladies Ministry together. They just spoke to Dr. Ollar in February 2008 and were put on the list. Tara had no idea Dr. Ollar was the Dr. I saw.

I don't want to make to much out of all of this. I really try to guard against having to have an emotional/touchy feely experience before I feel I can see God. But I just can't get all the "ties" (for lack of better word) to Dr. Ollar out of my mind. Wouldn't it be HUGE of God to send our baby through Dr. Ollar's office??!!

I know some of this is babbling and may not make sense. Thank you for liking me regardless.
Have a blessed weekend.